Life unplanned

Things have been happening lately and I wonder why they happen. Well, from a common-sense view I know why they happen, but from my hearts view I just can't understand it. A friend's husband had a motorbike accident and is now fighting for his life in ICU. A relative has had to say goodbye to her baby, born too soon to survive. A mystery illness is plaguing a colleagues daughter and she is unable to care for her 1yr old baby.

When things like these happen, it's like I've been slapped and have woken up to my life. All of a sudden I'm far more aware of my own, and my families mortality and it makes me nervous. I realise we can't go through life thinking 'what if' and 'imagine if' BUT, it shakes me up enough to realise that sometimes I go through life without putting in much of an effort. I don't tell people I love them often enough, I get too 'busy' to make that call to a friend and I don't say how I feel when I need to.

To make matters worse, I watched a movie last night in which a child was murdered. Called 'The Lovely Bones', it was not an enjoyable experience. It left me disturbed and my mind ticking. Before I went to bed, I kissed each of my children more than once and watched them sleeping for longer than a moment.

Life really is so so precious.